I created this blog in the weeks before school started. My goal was to update the site with problems my class would work on throughout the year and to reflect on the implementation of the unit I spent the entire summer writing with the Yale National Initiative. However grand my aspirations were for this blog, deep down I knew that I probably would not have the time or energy to update it once I started teaching. I was right. I have not opened E Blogger in over 8 months. So, here we go again. I am committing myself, to writing about my practice and joining the Math Teacher Blogosphere as a"blogger". Before doing so, I want to be upfront with the obstacles (excuses) that have prevented me from blogging in the past:
I don’t have time.
Teachers are busy…blah, blah, blah… Yes, I am busy. Yes, I don’t have a lot of time. Yes, I keep a spoon and a jar of peanut butter in my desk because I am too rushed in the morning to make a respectable, adult lunch. This excuse of being too busy falls flat when I consider the amount of idle time I spend talking, thinking, and lying awake at night, contemplating teaching middle school math. Instead of letting these thoughts and ideas float around in my head, there is no reason why I can’t use some of this time to pin some of them down in writing.
I don’t rite good.
I have never considered myself a writer and have a lot of anxiety over letting others read my writing. My fear of contributing to the math teacher blogosphere is due in large part to my admiration of the writing of popular bloggers like Dan Meyer, Fawn Nguyen, Tracy Zager, Michael Pershan. These individuals clearly have nuanced and important ideas and can clearly and precisely communicate these through writing. This excuse is mostly based in my own insecurities, but MTBOS is certainly an impressive and intimidating community to join. Please excuse my future grammatical/spelling errors and clunky wording.
I perceive my ideas as obvious, cliché, and most likely old news.
I know that the purpose of blogging in MTBOS is not to constantly pioneer new ideas and produce groundbreaking essays that will transform the world of math education. But I will often come to what I think is brilliant realization around my practice or my students, and then upon more reflection find that, duh, I should have understood this a while ago or that several other teachers have already written about this exact thing. This often leads me to conclude that this thing that is not worth writing about, so I don’t. Other questions I ask myself that contribute to this line of thinking are:
Does anyone really care about this idea?
Do I seem self important or naive to write about this idea that is probably common knowledge?
Who do you think you are Aaron?
How many people will roll their eyes when the read the subject of this post?
I think in order to overcome my inclination to self-doubt, I just need to GET OVER IT. The worst-case scenario is, nobody reads my blog and it becomes a private, although technically public, online diary of my own ramblings and ideas on teaching math.
I apologize for the poor writing of this post.
Ok, I'm going to close my eyes and press the publish button.